Oh dearie me. July was supposed to be the month I sorted out all the logistics of my post-grad life, but there’s still so much up in the air. At the end of June, I mentioned how I had decided which city I’d be moving to, but I kept going back and forth about it this past month. In the end, I decided to stick to the city I had chosen: New York City! I haven’t locked down an apartment, but my mom may be flying in to NYC to help me with that process, which I would be eternally grateful for, because I feel so lost (and so poor). I also don’t know whether I should hire movers to move my furniture over, or whether I should just leave my furniture in Philly (I have friends I could give it away to) and buy new furniture in NYC, though I am quite attached to much of my furniture. And I’m still on the job search. I had one interview this past month that went well, but I won’t be going through with that job, and I have another interview later this week.* At this point, I just want to have a job I can be certain about. For my sanity!! I really hope that I can lock down that job, then put all my focus on the apartment search and moving, and once that’s sorted, I need to make a plan. For life. Ya know, the works.

*I would like to share both interview experiences on the blog eventually, like how I shared about my first technical interview, but I may not get around to it until things settles down in September. I know that people always say that they’ll do things later when they’re less stressed or less busy and they never get less stressed or less busy, but I really think that I’ll be good in September, because even if I don’t have a job locked down, at the very least I’ll have moved and settled in NYC. And whilst we’re on that topic, sorry I haven’t been very active in the blogosphere this summer. I had taken a blogging break during my last month of senior year and had hoped to get back into it this summer, but this summer has taken more out of me than anticipated.

June was the month of planning and July is going to be the month of doing. I’ve made some big decisions in the last few days about post-grad life (primarily where I’ll be), and I still have more big decisions to make (primarily what I’ll do, aka a *job* but that’s too scary of a word to use). I don’t want to say anything more until these decisions are finalised and realised, but hopefully it’ll all be sorted out by the end of July, because the lease for my current apartment is up mid-August. Thoughts of the future have been fogging even the happiest moments this summer (i.e. “Will I have the privilege of knowing such happiness ever again in my life??”), but I’m hopeful that everything will work itself out, not in the sense that I’ll be living my best life, but in the sense that life is a journey, not a destination, and that’s completely okay.