I’ve been busy and will continue to be busy until spring break arrives this Friday, but for some strange reason, I’m not particularly stressed or anxious. I think it’s because I’ve been intentional about taking care of myself, giving myself the breaks I need, and allowing myself to sleep in. Going into this last week before spring break, part of me is worried that all that rest is going to come back and bite me in the butt (Did I rest too much? Was I productive enough?). But I’m determined to be hopeful and stay focused on what I need to do rather than dwell on what I could have done or should be doing. Just do it!

February is the shortest month of the year; who knew it could fit in so many seasons and emotions? I’ve felt a bit all over the place, but right now I’m feeling good, and I’m ready to power through the next week and a half until I get let off for spring break. I’m definitely looking forward to a slower pace of life over spring break, but also plan to be productive and get around to all those things I said I’d do but haven’t yet (i.e. making real progress with the job search, putting together content for the blog, doing photoshoots, etc.).

I don’t even know where to begin with recapping this past week! I’ve felt on top of school, got back in the swing of blogging, and spent time with friends. Then all of a sudden I was hit with a series of random misfortunes that I keep wondering in retrospect whether I had any agency in avoiding. Right now I’m just grateful that I have been feeling well mentally, physically, and emotionally lately in order to cope with it all. I can’t find the Tumblr text post now, but there’s one that goes something along the lines of: “me @ minor inconvenience: wHAT in the hECK. i have been wRONGED. [insert colourful language]. me @ major issue: it’s fine.” Ya that me.

My mantra going into this week is, “New week, new start.” I need to remind myself not to be petty, not think that everyone was wronged me, realise that everyone is doing their best, and keep doing my best.

Time has been flying by. When I can’t find time to blog, I know it’s serious. My mind has been a bit frazzled, trying to be present but also needing to plan for the future; it’s all quite overwhelming. There have been times I’ve been exhausted, relieved to finally tuck into bed and fall asleep, but my head would keep ringing and I would lie awake in bed for hours before finally passing out. I’ve been trying to pinpoint what’s been putting me on edge, but it’s still a work in progress.